I had long ago decided to stay single and stay the insane course of the writing dream. It wasn't difficult staying single, being me. None of these selfish adventures would've been possible with caring for a partner or children.

August 2001 found me wandering aimlessly a long way from Wisconsin, still in search of new adventures and perspectives. San Francisco proved a beautiful place to be, but it wasn't advancing my quest.

Golf course building and re-working was going full steam and a friend of the family offered me a job (thank you Mike Oliphant) working on The Virginian in Long Beach, CA.

Finding myself ever short of funds, my friend Roger Fallihee funded my aimless crusade for knowledge (for which I am both grateful and sorry for, because I have yet to repay him).

Roger and I had a farewell breakfast at local diner and I pointed my Blazer south.

I had the luxury of showing up to the job at my leisure. This meant my first stop would be Hollywood, where dreams are made and destroyed.

My dreams of seeing one my screenplays brought to life on the silver screen necessitated I spend a few days exploring the magic of tinsel town.

I don't like to do things like most people, I attempted to locate the seediest hotel available. The worse the area the better.

I stayed on Sunset for a night or two and on the corner of La Brea and Hollywood Blvd. for a couple more nights. I love the movie Hollywood Boulevard, but remain apathetic towards the actual boulevard.

It was just a facade. The lights and glamour seem manufactured after you witness the abundance of homeless people no one sees at movie premieres wandering the streets. The people mowing the park at the end of Sunset nudging homeless people, covered in newspapers, from the seats of their lawnmowers, so they'd get out of their way.

This in an area where real estate goes for a million dollars per square inch.


I love seedy neighborhoods, I learned to blend in and loved the shitholes I stayed in. I'd just spent 4 years immersed in the ghettos of Milwaukee (PC term: urban areas), an eye opening experience for milquetoast Jay from the shire.

People are just people, no matter where you are in actual location or social status. We're just as disappointing rich as we are poor.

What I discovered in the ghettos wasn't just a lack of wealth, it was a lack of hope. This was their fucking life and nobody gives a shit about them, so everybody can fuck off.


In the relatively nice shithotel I stayed in on Sunset Blvd. I was befriended by hookers.  Standing outside my room with a nice glass of box wine I watched the world pass by.

People seemed so friendly, waving up at me with smiles and the occasional shout-out. A pretty young woman appeared next to me, only moments after I wondered where all the perfume was coming from, and told me they thought I was a male prostitute.

I gladly accepted her invitation to join her friends in the back rooms of the hotel, where we shared more wine and stuff. Sometime during this surreal evening I decided it was time to get to Long Beach and find a place to live.

Neither of the two places I stayed in Hollywood were nearly as shitty as I'd hoped.

I knew I could do better and Long Beach did not disappoint. 

Hindsight provides one with a different view of the past. It occurs to me that it's quite possible I was going through a period of self-loathing and decided I didn't deserve anything nice. I deserved a shithole.

Next: Fear and Loathing in Long Beach